One of your faces has a smudge on it.

It's been a while since I've posted anything. So, naturally, I have a lot of things I'm pissed off about. =) But I'll begin with two-faced people.

Yeah, I seem to complain about this a lot. But it pisses me off and it's something that really bothers me. I'm not talking about venting about a friend or acquaintance here and there if they do something that annoys you. I do that, you do that, we all do that. Everyone needs a that outlet.

I'm talking about having nothing nice to say behind someone's back.. being downright hateful.. and then acting like you're their best friend to their face. When I witness you do this, you lose any credibility you had with me. Not that big of a deal to you, since I'm really of no importance in your life, but it's a big deal to me. I take friendship seriously. When I watch you slam someone behind their back and then smile at them, I know you're doing the same thing behind my back. I'm almost 30 years old. I don't have time in my life to deal with your stupid high school drama and I have no desire to listen to you dog someone I don't even know. Get the hell out of my face.

 I can't stress it enough.. I value friendships. I value the people in my life. I don't let many people in and there have been several who I tried to make friendships with that just didn't work out, for reasons of my wrong doing or theirs. But never, NEVER do I treat someone badly behind their back and then act friendly to their face. There usually is no question how I feel about someone. If there is, it's because I'm still iffy about you and at that point I keep plenty of distance between you and me until I know how I feel about you. Once I've reached a decision I either reach out to you or X you out completely. It's these traits about me that make it so goddamn hard for me to tolerate the two-faced bullshit. -__-

 That being said.. I have learned to accept that it's just the life in the military, I guess. I'm learning who to trust. There is a very small percentage of ladies I feel comfortable around (three to be exact). And the rest I just learn to live around. I do hope that the people who act like my friends are at least decent about me behind my back. If not, why are we even friends?